I hate that my life revolves around money more now the poorer I am. I think if I was rich, I wouldn't even think about money, or worry about it. I would be responsible with it, but I don't think I would have any problem giving it away to charities or friends that needed a hand. But I hate money. I hate that it seems to rule my life. I hate that I lie awake at night thinking about how I'm going to get more of it, how I'm going to just make ends meet. I hate dreading going to the gas pump because I'm afraid that it will reject my debit card or just drain my account dry as it all gets pumped into my tank. I hate that I walk through the grocery store and price out the cheapest brand of something that still tastes okay, just so I can get the most food to last two weeks for my measly hundred dollars or so. I hate that I have to go to my parents house and use their washing machine and dryer, just so I don't have to pay for laundry that I can't afford anyways. I am just tired of thinking about it all the time, all day. Stretched to the max. Everything I do... stretched thin.
I understand hun. I am sorry and wish I could make a joke here or something to take your mind off but my life is a joke presently so I am not sure I would be too funny
ReplyDeleteAw well, thanks for always reading my blogs at least. Haha, you're such a faithful follower. I probably just spew non-sense, but you're so gracious about it. I dunno, I'm just frustrated with life, like you I guess. Maybe about different things, but I guess I can't change or control much and I just need to accept that.
ReplyDeleteThe hardest part of life is accepting the things beyond your control. Kind of like me with relationships...I think I should become a priest and just stop. Because that aspect of my life never works out
ReplyDeleteHahahaaaa! Something tells me that you would make a terrible priest. I don't think you like little boys, at least in "that" way. But all kidding aside, there is something really amazing that happens I think, when a person can let go of things like that. I've obviously never experienced it. We can't all be Ghandi I guess.
ReplyDeleteSounds like things are tough... Sorry, I know it doesn't help that a lot more folks are going through tough times today and most of us have been there, at one time or another (and sadly, even when I have more money, I still worry about it (but I try not to let it control my life, it is to be a tool for exchange not a god)
ReplyDeleteYes, I like that, "a tool for exchange, not a god." It's not supposed to rule anyone's life, it's just a tool that we use for equal exchange, but it never works out that way. It's never enough. Lately it just seems that no matter what I do, I am just barely surviving. It gets old very quickly.
ReplyDeleteyes true i dont think i would make a good priest...lol but my life would be simpler if i could lol
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